So today I lwarned one of the hardest lessons about love. While some say it is easy to fall in and out of I find it is never easy no matter how you look at it. Recently I have found myself spending time with one of the most amazing men I have ever known. Inside I knew I wanted to scream I love you but I couldn't and still can't. You see For some reason even though I feel that I may love this man who falling apart at my finger tips I still had the strong connection with another that I found hard to let go of. I knew that while one man was utterly amzing and sweet the other was just well not so good at shwoing his sweet side even though I knew it exsisted. Today I did one of the hardest things I ever had to do and let the man I love walk out of my life forever because I knew it was best for him. I'm in no position to be in a relationship right now and so no matter how I felt it wouldn't have made a difference. I can't keep him around if I'm not ready for a relationship, it's not fair to him and yeah. I'm slightly depressed and sad cause yeah, he was my best friend and as far as I know I may never see or hear from him again but I just want him to know that I wish him the best of luck wherever he ends up cause yeah.. 10 more minutes then back to work.. woo hoo *rolls eyes* today rocks *rolls eyes again*